Happy Wednesday, goddesses! I hope you’re doing well, wherever you are in the world.
For the few months leading up to my trip to England, I’d been stewing in a huge horrible soup of negativity. Guilt, fear, resentment and anger toward the person who had done nothing but help me and love me, guide me into being the vivid woman he knew I was. It was so unfair, so vicious and cruel of me. So much unnecessary drama and hurting.
I feared my own success, my own happiness and I even feared the incredible love for and from my twin flame. My life sucked, but at least it was familiar and comfortable. Safe.
I had left off reading “Simple Abundance” for a few weeks. If I hadn’t done so, a series of days in February–when I was feeling my worst, just before Jon arrived–may have helped me feel a ton better. These few days in February talk about the exploration of the self, the excavation to finding your authentic self and what she truly wants in life.
I didn’t give myself the option of staying in the safe, comfortable fortress I had barricaded myself in for many years. I sucked in a breath and slowly picked up the courage to face what was outside that fortress, that life I knew.
And you know what? It’s okay to be scared.
It’s okay to be flippin’ terrified when you’re on the brink of discovering your true self. It’s monumental. It’s breathtaking. It’s a change in your thinking and self-perception. It’s leaving the safety of your own inner civilization to head into dark, unknown wilderness. It’s understanding your past, letting go, and healing before you can evolve as a wild, abundant woman. It gives you the tools to change your life, and whether that means finding who you are, taking that exciting new job, moving to another country, or finally getting your talents out there… well, it’s a glorious thing.
“You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you’ll discover will be wonderful. What you’ll discover will be yourself.” – Alan Alda
“Sometimes a person has to go back, really back— to have a sense, an understanding of all that’s gone to make them— before they can go forward.” —Paule Marshall
Have courage to face this wonderful, wild, succulent thing before you.
It’s you in the mirror.
Love and light,